Well today was more of the same. I'm on the verge of giving up. Not because I can't take the diet, or hold off my cravings. Mostly because I'm not really sure I can ever get rid of my toxins, so why try?
The Smooth Move tea didn't help, so I've upped the ante today - drank one cup this afternoon letting the tea steep longer. And right now I'm sipping on a second. Maybe that's a bad move, but I need to get things moving.
And of course, since I have placed these food restrictions on myself, there have been several opportunities for free food. Tuesday night I had a law review mixer at Loie's - free food and free drinks. Obviously. So I had to sit there and watch everybody else enjoy the food and drink! Then Wednesday I was in the student lounge and a guy comes in with three boxes of pizza and says "Go at it! It's all yours!" Again, obviously. Why don't these free food opportunities happen when I am free to eat it????
Enthusiasm is waning. Dejection and hopelessness are setting in.
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Ever since I got your email update this morning (weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!) I'm waiting with bated breath to see how you will discuss your ... cleanse. I'm a little afraid, but I'm Glad Smooth Move worked its magic!
sorry kim...i want you to succeed in just about everything you put your mind to, but i have zero enthusiasm for detox dieting. just my opinion, but amongst other things, it seems to emphasize a negative self image, obsessive control and (depending on your point of view) punishment.
also, drexel had a student holiday party in creese yesterday with A LOT of really decent food
dear jens, it will be good!
dear holidays, generally, i would agree with you 100%. but over the last couple months i have come to dislike how i feel physically because i am always tired, always eating improperly, and always feeling full of toxins.
while this detox may seem like a punishment, it is motivated by a desire to cleanse my body of all the toxins built up, intiate a lifestyle change towards eating more healthy foods, and start anew with my body. it is not motivated by a desire to be skinnier or change my body image. i want to change the inside of my body!
the struggle is definitely annoying, but when this is over i will be in a better mental and physical state.
thank you for your concern!
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